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Sunday, November 28, 2004 08:15 p.m.
hum. trying a change :) xanga! fro your copy-pasting pleasure: http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=mellomar or just click the time stamp (it's a link) :) hope y'all like it :) later!
Sunday, November 28, 2004 08:15 p.m.
hum. trying a change :) xanga! fro your copy-pasting pleasure: http://www.xanga.com/private/home.aspx?user=mellomar or just click the time stamp (it's a link) :) hope y'all like it :) later!
Sunday, November 28, 2004 02:33 p.m.
i wanna go home :( i don't feel right being in chico. i wanna sit and play sims and be with my family... :( pooh :P plus, i didn't get any work done, so i have tons to do :P and lots of unpacking too... later
Wednesday, November 24, 2004 11:19 a.m.
i'm a bum :) this vacation's been nice so far. i bought a lot of clothes, got addicted to sims2, been a bum :) cleo and i are gunna see the incredibles today. other than that and not doing any homework, i'm good :) later
Friday, November 19, 2004 09:39 p.m.
home sweet home :) it took me less than four hours to get here... bad speeding :) it's nice to be with my mom and sister, but i really don't like being around my dad :P such a pooh :P yea.. we had chichen for dinner. it was soo good :) and artichokes and home made bread :) mumm... tomorrow, we're going to my mom's spin group. then sunday shopping :) oh. we might not go back to chico friday, it's undecided at the moment :) anyways, it's nice to be home again :) my cat got really fat... and my dog keeps following me around as though i'm going to disappear :) ah :) ok :) bye!
Friday, November 19, 2004 07:43 a.m.
ugh. i think all the recent stress is making me sick. i almost threw up when i woke up this morning. luckily, after today is a week long vacation. home! yay :) gunna see my dog! lol... and everyone else of course :) gunna go shopping! :) i forgot what i was going to write about... oh! yea, if anyone wants to do anything, you can reach me at my old cell :) i'll be available, probably sunday through wednesday :) tho not monday morning, i want to visit my teachers :) ok... bye :)
Thursday, November 18, 2004 05:44 p.m.
ok. i'm going to write about it eventually, but not yet. not til i've calmed down, throught it out completely, and am ready to write without saying mean things that i'll regret :) for now, i'll talk about my day... i just got back from walking around down town with josh. josh is a nice person, i wish i'd been nicer to him before... anyways, we went to bird in the hand (cute store)where i bought more chiristmas presents and remembered my mom's birthday's right after christmas. bought her something she'll like :) then we went to tower. i wanted the my fair lasy soundtrack... maybe another time :) then to dinner at subway... yeah :) i'm tired. this has been a long day. later
Wednesday, November 17, 2004 09:42 p.m.
haha! it has begun! before ballroom dance, i went to the stonewall alliance center and signed up for their news letter. and i'm going to start going to their youth groups when i'm done with ballroom dance. then i read in the bmu for an hour. peaceful :) then class. it was really fun! my partner was john (trogdor!) we didn't dance too badly :) and it looks like he's my first new friend :) we're going to the dance on the 1st after vacation, and i hope this is the beginning of new and better things :) yay! ok :) later!
Wednesday, November 17, 2004 05:00 p.m.
i havn't been myself lately. i guess i just got sucked into the first group of people who accepted me here. bad move. they weren't right for me. but i'm starting over. i'm taking band next semester, looking into gsa related stuff here, might do more voulenteering, meeting my old westmont buddies, and starting fresh :) sounds a lot like high school with band, gsa, and voulenteering. but this time, i won't let a stupid boy ruin me :P wish me luck :) bye!
Tuesday, November 16, 2004 09:27 p.m.
having morals is worth nothing, if you can't be kind to people.
Monday, November 15, 2004 09:30 p.m.
just got back from a movie: after the sunset. it was really funny, but too much sexual junk :P i also started my christmas shopping :) lol. i bought more presents for myself than for anyone else :) bad me... oh well :) later
Saturday, November 13, 2004 07:15 a.m.
i had a nightmare that i was looking for michael to appologive to him for something, and i couldn't find him. i seriously feel like pooh. spencer has some friends over for the weekend, and we were hanging out with them yeasterday. they went out to drink at the parties, and i tried to comvince the nice one that there was no reason to drink. yea, but, though all my arguements are good, he didn't listen. what am i supposed to do? just sit by and watch them hurt themselves? i guess i shouldn't force my morality on others, but damn, then what do i do? i don't really know, and i feel really helpless. i guess i just stop caring. because if i don't care about them, then when they mess up their lives because i didn't do anything, i can feel better about myself. riight, good way to live. i dunno what i'm supposed to do. i hate it here right now. i wanna go somewhere where there are good people. bye
Friday, November 12, 2004 02:38 p.m.
ha! i realized that this paper is going to be really easy to write cuz i'm so passionate about my subject :) so, i came on to take a brake (before even starting...) and talk to people :) tisk :) oh well :)i'm really tired today. not sure why. i was really close to falling asleep in philosophy. some other guy did, and the prof poked him awake. i hope i never do :) ok! bye
Friday, November 12, 2004 07:17 a.m.
i feel like i havn't slept :( and tonight's going to be long (dance!) and tomorrow, no sleeping in cuz of windchime... pooh. plus i have a ton of work to do cuz i've been slacking :( what a complainer i am. i'll get through it all. just don't plan on hearing much from me til monday :) bye!
Thursday, November 11, 2004 01:51 p.m.
:) there's an arbys in chico! yay :) sabrina and i just went there for lunch. and after, we went to the dollar tree where i bought stuff i don't need :) wrapping paper (with cute penguins on it!), present lable stickers, berry scented air freshner, buttons (for the pants i'm "working" on), and... scented bubble... but they're scented! yea... :) i'm so bad at saving money... i wanna buy people christmas presents, but i dunno what to get everyone :( give me hints! :) later
Wednesday, November 10, 2004 03:13 p.m.
i just gave myself a bad headache reading all my silly pacifist books... but i decided on a thesis for my english paper :) i'm going to argue that there is no effective pacifist theory. oops? oh well, it'll be interesting :) i just hope i don't destroy my morality in the process :) i wish i was an ahisma pacifist :( that's ghandi's form where you love your enemy. *sigh* too lofty for me. but i'll work on it :) bye!
Wednesday, November 10, 2004 01:12 p.m.
ha! it finally hit me (luckily before i actually started the class) that i don't need my class on african music for next semester cuz i took the american history classs. which is good cuz i didn't really wanna take it anyways :) so, i substituted concert band. i hope i'm good enough. tho a girl in my communication class said they really need horns, so they'll love me :) yay :) ok... lots of work to do.. later :)
Wednesday, November 10, 2004 07:19 a.m.
cricket! :) heh. i scaired myself last night. i've been waking up at three in the morning for a few days now. each time i just drink some juice or water and fall back asleep. but last night... before i went to bed, it was really hot, and i noticed that i had a really warm blanket on me and wondered whether i should take it off. but i fell asleep before i did anything. so, when i woke up at three, i looked at my blankets and it wasn't there. i went around the room looking everywhere it could have been, but i couldn't find it. yea, finally i looked at my night stand which is also my filing cabinet, and it was stuffed in the top drawer. i don't remember doing that. i guess i deal when it's too hot :) anyways... i watched a good movie last night with people. ned kelly. it has both orlando and heath! :) lol. boy do i have fun messing with josh's head about cute movie stars... so mean :) ok. you should watch it. bye :)
Tuesday, November 9, 2004 02:27 p.m.
hum. mood swings? i dunno. i feel fine today :) i got a 96 on my stats exam :) then got back here, did history homework, ate with sabrina, and i just got back from the library where i was looking up pacifism and the just war theory for english. i'm ok :) i wanna go play pool or volleyball or something sporty-ish... maybe later when people are out of class and done with their work. i have stuff to do for now too. later :)
Monday, November 8, 2004 9:27 p.m.
man. i was sewing and getting angrier and angrier at michael (cuz i was thinking about and missing him earlier, and it felt good to stab him in the eye with the needle)... and somehow that developed into really bad depression. after about 20 minutes of uncontrolable crying, i feel quite burnt out. i wanna be with my old friends from when i was little and every friend in between whom i don't see anymore. i wanna find everyone who ever cared about me and the people who care about me now and just have people who care all around me. i feel like pooh. i can't wait for vacation to go home. i miss my family. i didn't think that would ever happen, but i do :( i want my mommie :( and greg and cleo and Q... :( ok... getting sad again. i just needed some kind of out. later... don't worry, i'll feel better soon :)
Monday, November 8, 2004 9:09 p.m.
i just found out that "could it be any harder" by the calling is way not a song i should be listening to any time soon. i feel so sad.
Monday, November 8, 2004 04:47 p.m.
man. nobody likes a pacifist :( i need to research my paper on pacifism... library time :) later
Sunday, November 7, 2004 05:43 p.m.
hum. yep :) back in chico. what a weekend. i don't really like any of sabrina's friends from puc. not very nice people. for carrie (sabrina's friend who we stayed with)'s friend wanted to eat at this indian food place. it was weird. it was in a bad part of san francisco, and people smoked out of bongs at the bar. interesting. i didn't like the food either, but it was an experience :) after, we went swing dancing. it was so fun :) they dance differently there than we do here. so many guys asked me to dance. all i had to do was sit, and eventually someone would come and ask me :) i was so tired by the time we were done. i wish guys were that brave here :) it was so fun :) lol. we also went to the beach near puc, but it was really cold, and when i walked up to the water a lifeguard dude called me back and warned me about being pulled in. pooh :P yea... after the drive here, i'm exausted :) bye!
Saturday, November 6, 2004 09:57 a.m.
no. i just wanted to say that. no! now, go away :) lol. yeah. snoby people here at puc are getting to me? naw :) people arn't so bad. sabrina and i got lost and ran out of gas yesterday, and it was all stressful and junk :P so, i had a migrane and felt all sick for the evening. and went to bed early... i fell better now :) i was up early and read. i'm thirsty :) and i checked my mail... yea, so, it's not that i mind, or people should stop or anything, but why would anyone come to ME for love advice? i mean... look at my track record? i can't keep a guy, i make pople unhappy. i don't know what to do anymore than you do :) bu hey, it you want my two cents, keep em coming :) bye!
Thursday, November 4, 2004 03:52 p.m.
amused :) i have an A in history now. i got all the classes i wanted when i registered this morning: intermediate ballroom dance, chem, anthropology: cultural diversity, child developement, aferican american music, and a logic class. furthermore, :) there was this plan gremany had before ww1 (their ONLY plan) which was basically, if ANYONE declared war on them, their first step would be to invade france. i found it really amusing :) sabrina and i are in the process of deciding that we're gunna stay here and ask to move in together into gordon hall where jack is. safer hopefully :) i had odd dreams last night. i went to the health center to have my hand looked at, but decided that i needed to register for classes. so i ran around looking for a computer :) that's what's been on my mind :) sheep go to heaven, goats go to hell....
Wednesday, November 3, 2004 06:15 p.m.
yar :) i have a smoothie, therefore i an happy :) i'm rethinking the whole taking craig to court thing. i'm such a bum :( and i have not back bone. i'll stay the rest of the year and join jack and sabrina when the summer starts. that just means no staying at craig for the winter break. oh well. yea... i don't think i did very well on my philosophy quiz today. the questions were actually hard, and i didn't know how to word my answers. but i knew the material. pooh :P i'm tired :) looks like i'm going to puc this weekend with sabrina. i hope that's fun... yea :) nothing much else to say :) later!
Tuesday, November 2, 2004 11:01 a.m.
anyone wanna give me some legal advice? :) looks like i may be taking craig to small claims court. but maybe they'll cave after i make my initial demand. man, i would make a good lawyer :) lol. of only i wansn't to shy. tho when i truly care and get worked up, i totally lose my inhibitions. like for welter's debates. i always won :) yea, i need some good legal advice. i wish i'd known sooner that craig wouldn't let me go. could have started this sooner, and gotten away. oh well. i just hope i'm not stuck over winterbreak. we'll see :) later
Sunday, October 31, 2004 10:59 p.m.
so, halloween in chico is really boring if you're sober. oh well. we walked around where it's supposed to be really scary and dangerous. it wasn't :P the cops on horses were cool :) and spencer's gunna be on the news. yea :) and we went to a party, but it smelled and was boring. i'm cold and tired. done for today. no trick or treating for me :( oh well. later
Saturday, October 30, 2004 03:10 p.m.
*sigh* i guess if i don't explain, people are gunna ask since it's already started... ok. i'm rather embarrased, so after you read this, forget you did and don't talk to me about it cuz i'm doing the same :P so, i liked this guy who lives over in sabrina's building, and i made effort to get to know him. he said he wanted the girl to make the first move cuz he's really shy. so, on a random impulse (which will never happen ever again :P ) i told him i liked him. everything was happyhappy for a day. then we went out to dinner with people on thursday, and he totally ignored me when i went to play pool with josh. i kept looking over to see if he'd wave or even care that i was gone. nope. so, after the musical josh had me see with him (quilters- it was interessing), i went to ask if he really liked me, and lo! he didn't :P pooh. yea... so everything's really awkwards with my friends and thing arn't great right now. and i havn't been sleeping... and now this is a complaining fest :P ok. happier things... i was the judge for a pet costume contest at windchime today. really cute pug :) i wanted to take it home with me... my head hurts. bye
Thursday, October 28, 2004
or not
Wednesday, October 27, 2004 06:00 p.m.
Ahhhh! things are starting to change! for the better i hope :) i'll update about it later when i know for sure :) until then! :)
Wednesday, October 27, 2004 03:15 p.m.
"never there" by cake makes me want to street hustle :) such a cool song! someone come dance with me! ;)
Wednesday, October 27, 2004 07:14 a.m.
ugh... i had such a nghtmare :( first i was wlking to the bus stop and watching a cat chase some mice, then i was a yankee soldier hiding from some confederates, then, suddently, there was someone tall in a black cape standing over my bed and i jerked awake. it was really scary. but there was nothing, so i went back to sleep. i'm really tired...
Tuesday, October 26, 2004 11:19 p.m.
ha! i can read old pitas entries about michael and not feel sad! is this it? or am i just in a mood where nothing touches me? i wish i knew. i wish i was ok. someday :) later.
Tuesday, October 26, 2004 10:05 p.m.
Ooo... we had the coolest thunderstome a few hours ago :) so pretty :) and while it was happening, sabrina, jack and i were on our way to dinner at red lobster (great clam chowder :) ) and his car broke... again :) fun. so sabrina and i got out to push... push. then we walked to dinner. they have good smoothies too :) ok... then we played games with josh, sang in the rain, stuff :) and now, i'm here :) yay! later!
Tuesday, October 26, 2004 01:01 p.m.
ah, there we go. i was wondering why i'm sorta out of it. i couldn't sleep again last night. that's two nights in a row where i just lied there for hours trying to sleep but unable to. *sigh* my head aches... at least i'm getting my work done today :) i finished the history paper, and researched the stats. i jusy need to write it :P boring! i wanna go play pool :) or eat, i'm hungry :) someone come to chico and play pool with me! :) pronto! heh. fun word :) pronto! they're not due til thursday. i can procrastonate one more day, can't i? :) maybe not... we'll see... i should eat. later!
Monday, October 25, 2004 09:08 p.m.
i wish there was someone here. i feel kinda lonely... i went with jack and sabrina to sabrina's italian study group at barnes and nobles... ended up sitting in one of those chairs (yea, the dirty ones :P ) reading almost half of chicken noodle soup for the nursing soul... it made me all teary :( and now, i'm alone... all alone... *sigh*... but i took a shower and i'm all clean, so i don't want to leave my room... pooh. oh well. later
Monday, October 25, 2004 03:17 p.m.
kinda shaky and unable to stop moving :) classes were bearable. didn't like my peer critics of my essay. none too intelligent :P oh well. i know what i want to write, and i know i'm a better writer than they are :P pooh. i'm such a bum :) i think i actually did well on my comm exam too. tho i was rather unthinking. lol, new word :) and then philosophy was cancled, and i got there just in time for the shuttle :) so i didn't have to walk home on my quarter sized blister :P icky. it's so painful. i walk like a gimp :P after that came lunch with jack and sabrina, then a nap, then my second paper. yay :) and now... i'm starving... later!
Monday, October 25, 2004 07:21 a.m.
erg. i didn't fall asleep til like 4 or 5... i was just lying there thinking... no sleep. i'm so tired. i'm like not even thinking beyond sleep...
Sunday, October 24, 2004 11:05 p.m.
oh man. i have a blister on my foot, my legs are all weak, and i feel like i'm going to yack :) BUT IT WAS SO FUN!!! we almost decided to skip craig hall's "mocktail" party, but last minute, we decided it would be fun to dress up and dance. plus we didn't have to dance like all the sleazy girls. sabrina had jack, and i gave josh a three minutes street hustle lesson, and it was great :) i've never had so much fun dancing :) and there was this guy there who's been dancing swing for 6 years. golly gee gosh :) that was fun :) tho it was really hard to keep up with him. he made swing a ... i can't remember the exact term, but moving dance :) it was so fun :) ok. i feel really sick... later!
Sunday, October 24, 2004 03:05 p.m.
nah. hi. i just took a nap and feel rather out of myself. sabrina stayed the night here czu her roommate has a guy over :P we went out to breakfast at ihop. never been there before. didn't like it so much. then to the mall to get warm clothes. found nothing. nothing. cuter on the rack than on me :( oh well. too expensive anyways :P i miss berlington coat factory... maybe there's one here. should look for it. i always froget i have a phone book. whatever. i finished one paper. english, due tomorrow. don't think i'll be getting anywhere with the others today. but i have time. later
Saturday, October 23, 2004 03:54 p.m.
i am quite tired... just got back from the halloween party at windchime. it was really fun :) not much to do tho... my dress was pretty :) i have lots of work for this weekend. a paper due in every class except philosophy... later
Thursday, October 21, 2004 10:06 p.m.
hum. am i so dumb? well, i went to a lecture to get extra credit for history this after noon, and i was one of the first people there. so, i walked in and asked this nice looking woman if i was in the right place. i was, and we astarted talking about the lecturer and his other lectures, when this woman walks up and says that they're doing a photo opp for a magazine doing a feature about the lecture. so, the lady and i go along. and i'm thinking wow, i'm representing chico, better look good :) she has us sign a waver allowing them, basically, to do anything they want with the pictures (should of been my first indication of something wrong). and we sat with the lecturing dude and his colligue. they wanted us to look like we were having a discussion, so i sat and listened while they talked politics. then that was it. right. turns out the magazine, which i had never heard of, the national enquiror, is one of those alien-baby, tabloid magazines... so, look for me in march with the headliner "chico student pregnate with john kerry's baby" :P pooh. but maybe it's legitimate? we'll see... on a happier note, i bought tarot cards. tho i'm not so happy about that either... whatever. bye
Thursday, October 21, 2004 07:11 a.m.
i just had the weirdest dream ever. basically, it was district festival, and i was sitting next to brian, which is odd cuz he's trumpet, and i'm horn. and the whole time we're just sitting there loudly making fun of the director. it was really funny. yea. a lot of other really odd stuff happened too. like the director couldn't figure out what to play, so he took my folder and grabbed some random music and wanted everyone to play it when they didn't have the music. and there was a little girl who was stuffing her face with pie... i dunno. i didn't get much sleep... i've also come to the conclusion that i'd be ok if i never dated again. yea, dumb thing to say, and you can laugh at me in a few months when i'm dating again. but, man, guys suck :P i wanna be that old lady on the hill with cats :) oh, and i also noticed that me and michael is parallel to me and aj cuz it was a serious relationship in which we wanted to get married, and we broke up at a major life turning point. i don't know how major high school is compared to college, but whatever. i was 13, it was major :P yea... anything else to say...... no? not really :) i'm gunna be tired today, and i have a history lecture to go to :P pooh. bye!
Wednesday, October 20, 2004 09:44 p.m.
ah :) dancing was fun. we learned street hustle after the skills test. the test sucked. i just couldn't function... oh well. i have sour gummy worms :)
Wednesday, October 20, 2004 05:53 p.m.
lala. sitting in the bmu til jack's out of his meeting. then ballroom :) we have our skills test today. i'm kinda nervous :( just had kinder's. that place is great. a nice deli/bbq. yum :) ok... nothing much to say. i was really depressed yesterday, but today i'm perfectly fine :) in a perky mood according to david. couldn't remember his name there for a second :) ok... bye!
Wednesday, October 20, 2004 07:18 a.m.
i have heat! my air conditioner doubles as a heater when it's cold, and it is cold! yea... wednesday :) ballroom dance tonight. that's about it. i'm tired and cold... bye
Tuesday, October 19, 2004 09:35 p.m.
i have this general feeling of discontentment. i dunno why. it's like something is wrong but i'm not aware of it. maybe i'm just weird :)
Tuesday, October 19, 2004 10:58 a.m.
man, every street corner is flooded. which isn't too fun for us short people :) my pants got so wet. i hate that :) i don't know why i'm in such a good morning today. yesterday was a shit. but it raining today, and that makes me happy :) plus, i have the second highest grade in my history class. lol. dunno how i managed that. and the other grade is like 1% higher than mine. what pooh :) i'm thinking of walking around in shorts or a skirt so my pants don't get wet anymore, but that's kinda silly... which would be worse for my health? dunno.. i vote pants cuz it's there for hours upon hours... whatever :) bye!
Tuesday, October 19, 2004 07:17 a.m.
it's pouring outside :)
Monday, October 18, 2004 04:51 p.m.
woah. i just read a gsa email michael wrote and was surprised at how angry and hateful i felt. i'm mad that he's just living his life and seems ok. i hate him so deeply. i wish i could forget and just not care anymore. it makes me so sad, and then i hate myself for feeling the way i do. but i want him to be as misrible as i am. he doesn't deserve happiness. man, i hate myself for thinking this, and writing it. but what else is there?
Monday, October 18, 2004 02:56 p.m.
my nose is really cold. despite the phoey morning, i'm actually in quite a good mood :) everyone's toilet didn't flush, so i didn't really have to bother anyone :) classes were boring. i got an A on my english portfolio, an A on my com quiz, an A on my philosophy quiz (the 10 minute one) and i reread my nursing stuff, and found out that they only count my BEST 4 grades on my app and ANY medical experience will work. and i can use my music school work. and... oh i forgot... ah, if i'm profiscient in french (duh :P) i can use that too. haha! i really want to get in. i want to be a nurse :( i dunno what i'll do if i don't... maybe psychology. but i wouldn't enjoy that as much :( oh! when i did my laundry today (yay me), i locked myself out :) my first. they charge you $10 each lock out after the first two. pooh :P hum. i'm done with my homework. i feel like doing something. maybe practicing horn :) i sat down and made of list of potential classes for next semester cuz i thought i could register soon, but it's not for another 2 weeks. oh well :) i'm rambling now... :-D i had something to say, but i forgot it... bye!
Monday, October 18, 2004 07:20 a.m.
today looks like a good day for me to be perpetually annoyed. my teeth still ache from yesterday, and my toilet won't flush. pooh :P i don't like talking to the desk people... :( whine! :) yea... i'm annoying myself now... later
Sunday, October 17, 2004 09:05 p.m.
happy cleo? you've been added. i didn't know people even really looked at those... i just put them there cuz i didn't want to loose a site... whatever :) back from yreka. it was really fun :) i became one with nature or something like that :) i would say more, but i'm tired and can't really remember much of what we did. but it was fun :) my gums hurt :( i think i have wisdom teeth coming in or something. hope not :( don't want those. i'd rather be dumb :P taste like blood :P ewww... ok... bye
Thursday, October 14, 2004 10:28 p.m.
sometimes i really think i have no common sense. i have a dilemma (sp?) but i can't really write it here. and people have already given me advice about it (jared :) ) but i want someone to tell me what i want to hear... lol. so much for wanting advice... i dunno :( i guess it's a wait and see kinda deal. i don't like me right now... on a brighter note, this went from a phoey day to a rather nice day. i practiced horn finally for about an hour. i sounded really bad. feel sorry for my hallmates... i got my work all done for tomorrow. the weekend looks to be really fun :) but, i feel kinda down still. i'm alone. whatever. i feel like reading. bye
Wednesday, October 13, 2004 09:48 p.m.
:) i love ballroom dance! :)it's so fun. i don't like touching people so much tho. it's gross :P ewww... sweaty hands :P yea... i'm tired :) and i don't feel like finishing my history homework. the reading is so dull. and she tells up what's gunna be on the test anyways... i'll read it tomorrow :) ok! bye...
Wednesday, October 13, 2004 07:22 a.m.
oh man. i'm so tired :( and i got at least 8 hours of sleep... dunno. *shrug* i don't really have anything to talk about. we decided on a house :) only three people tho :( but we're gunna ask if we can have a fourth. and the puppy! i want a puppy :) i'm still sick. i feel like going back to bed. i think i forgot to take my vitamin last night... now i'm just babbling :) later!
Tuesday, October 12, 2004 02:05 p.m.
muhaha? my 'i'm smarter that everyone else' thing of the day: i have one of the highest grades in my history class. how did that happen? a B is not good. i got 20 out of 25 on my last quiz, but it's my grade on the exam that's making me look so good. and i do look good ;) lol. i'm really full of myself today. i am just so happy. i told spencer it's cuz i eat so much ice cream, but i dunno. everything is going well right now. i have fun people around me, school is actually enjoyable, the future looks good (tho i'm nervous about applying to nursing...), and... i'm generally happy :) Oooo... i did my stats homework wrong tho. well, hum. i didn't hear him give a specific instruction, and neither did anyone else in the class so it seems. and i pay really close attention to everything, so i'm pretty sure he failed to mention it. whatever. i now know... lol. whatever we're doing, a lot better :) yea... run out of points it seems. i have eaten a little too much ice cream, my teeth feel gross :) later!
Monday, October 11, 2004 10:19 p.m.
yeee haw!!! my mommie said yes :) hehehe... now i can brag about the house we're looking at tomorrow. i havn't even seen it, but i already love it :) it has a jacuzzi!!!! ah! and we can have a dog :) we're gunna go to the pound and pick one and name it and wub it forever and ever... :-D heh :) what else... it's not here! that's the best part :) i'm tired of craig. spencer won't be moving with us tho. that's too bad. his parents arn't as nice as my mom... maybe next year tho :) just me sabrin and jack for now... we don't really know anyone else we can put up with. *sigh* i can't wait to move :) and... nope lost my thought. spencer imed me... whatever :) i'm excited :) oh! i havn't been depressed in a long time. like maybe even a month :) i've felt so good lately. OOOooo... know what made me happy today? lol. i'm such a pooh. philosophy is so easy. so my goal is to totally psych out my class. so, when we took the quiz today, i got done with it as fast as i could. less than five minutes :-D nah hahaha! i'm evil :) they probably all hate me. i love me :) lol... ok, i'm done! bye
Monday, October 11, 2004 02:50 p.m.
gah! this is not an environment conductive to studying. the maids are out in my hall vacuming. my head aches :( i'm so tired. i don't like it here. sabrina and jack are leaving for sure in 60 days, they just gave notice. i want to get out next semester. don't wanna be here alone :( and spencer will come too. we're looking at houses in a couple hours. heh, i just have to convince my mom that it a good idea. shouldn't be too hard. i have a list :) 1. the house will be cheaper. $1200 a month divided by four people plus bills and food, should be about $500 a month. it's $800 here :P 2. UNSANITARY! there are dirty qtips in my hall, plus the silverware and plates that were there earlier. it's so gross here :P and the food! oh my, the food. yuck :P 3. it'll be easy to do. i don't even have to file breachof contract like sabrina is, i just do it soon, and i'm out. i dunno about getting all the money back yet, tho. have to ask about that. 4. i'll be all alone here if i don't get out next semester. that would not be fun. i'd probably end up spending all my time at their house anyways :) 5. it's not safe here. a girl down the hall had one of the btowns pull a gun on her. and that guy who wanted to fight me or whatever. i don't feel safe. 6. we'll be in a better neighborhood and not so close to teh parties. the one we're seriously looking at is close to bidwell park. it's such a nice neighborhood :) eeee... 7. lol sabrina wrote healthier food here :) yeah, she loves to cook :) plus i wouldn't be sick for a million years if i was in a better environment. yea. that's all i have for the moment. wish me luck in persuading my mom tonight :) bye
Monday, October 11, 2004 07:19 a.m.
holy moly :) so tired... i went to davis to visit joy yesterday :) it was fun :) i suck at bowling... and communial bathrooms are icky :p :) i got back around 7 and tried to play games with people, but i only got about 5 hours of sleep the night before, and ended up going to bed at like 9. and i'm still exausted. so much stuff is due today. i did it all but i feel like i'm missing something... i just want to go back to sleep. pooh.
Saturday, October 9, 2004 01:19 a.m.
i've eaten like half a pint or more of b&j's cookie dough ice cream today. sabrina and i bought some and just went at it... lol. i came back cuz i realized i didn't finish that thought. we're going to cody's lacross game. then we're going out to the frolf course to eat and watch the sun set in the evening. then probably and another game night. tho i want to go to bed early so i can leave to go to davis tomorrow and see joy :) yay. i'm exausted :) lol... bye again!
Saturday, October 9, 2004 01:00 a.m.
huh. i was gunna write about how pretty the rain is outside, but a fire truck just pulled up outside. probably rescueing someone with alcohol poisoning... anyway, the dance was interesting. i was a wall flower sorta. i danced with spencer and jack and some guy who lives here at craig who i don't really know. and i was sitting and watching people dance cuz they're really amazing :) and this old guy (well, older...) asks me to dance. a TA. pooh. can't get away with my bad dancing anymore. he worked with me and taught me how to salsa and chacha :) it was fun. but then spencer came to grab me cuz they wanted to go, and he wants me to stay. that scaired me a little. but i left, it was ok :) i'm too nice to people sometimes... hum. i'm supre tired :) it's late... but i don't really want to sleep. i have to be up in 6 hours for the memory walk. then we're going to cody's... nope, tried but can't remember the... no! never mind :) lacross :) good thought process there :) now i'm really tired. too much thinking... bye
Friday, October 8, 2004 08:08 a.m.
i was angry when i found out yesterday, but today i'm only vaguely annoyed. my "date" for the masque isn't coming. so, i'm going alone :P there it is. i probably won't dance with anyone cuz i'm too shy :( but showing up is all i have to do for ballroom credit. *sigh* stupid pete. oh well. bye
Thursday, October 7, 2004 11:44 a.m.
i feel wonderful today :) i'm still sick, but i'm really jucy :-D and i'm pretty sure that's a sign that i'm getting better :) la! in about 20 minutes i'm eating lunch with s and j (i'm too lazy to write out their names...), then s has itallian, and i'm gunna get all my homework done :) then, around 3 we're going to find a halloween store to get a mask, gloves and a hat for my costume :) eee! my dress is so pretty :) after, we're gunna watch fareignHYPE 9/11. which is the republican response to fareignHIGHT 9/11 cuz we watched the other one a few days ago. that shall be fun :) and tomorrow, i only have com and philosophy and then i'm done. probably won't have any homework. so i'll have a free weekend! and so much fun stuff to do, and i'm getting better! :) not gunna infect the old people or the davis people :) yee hee... :)ok...
gotta check on my laundry... bye!
Wednesday, October 6, 2004 09:36 p.m.
i feel like pooh, but i'm in a good mood :) just wrote my mom a long email about dresses and snoods :) don't feel like repeating myself tho. sorry :) no wait... yes i do! lol. so, we went to the salvation army to look for cheap ideas for my druid costume and whatever jack's going to be, and i ended up buying two BEAUTIFUL used prom dresses for only $15. i'm going to be a princess :) i hope peter doesn't mind... but a dragon and a princess makes more sense than a draogon and a druid :) yea? yea! what else... the dresses are pretty :) i wish i could wear pretty dresses all the time, but people would look at me funny... oh well :) i sat out in ballroom and watched cuz i'm really sick still. i better be better by saturday. i so don't want to miss the memory walk :( and the dance... and going to visit joy :) that would be pooh. pooh i tell you! ok... i need to shower and sleep... night!
Wednesday, October 6, 2004 08:37 a.m.
that's a bad start to what's supposed to be a good day :( i threw up pretty badly, and then took a bath to feel better. but now, i have a bloody nose to contend with. pooh :( i don't want to be sick anymore. and my cough is coming back :( i wanna sleep all day.
Wednesday, October 6, 2004 07:58 a.m.
oh man. i am SOOO sick :( and i'm stuffing my face full of bagel in an attempt to not throw up. does that make sense? noo... plus, i'm still going to class. i must have a fever... boo
Tuesday, October 5, 2004 11:00 p.m.
so, i'm walking out of my room and over next door to see if spencer wants to go eat. and there are these two guys outside. one's btown and the other's some new guy who hangs out with btown, i guess. and as i walk up, the new guys hold out his hands at me like he's doing kung foo or something. then he's like 'oh sorry, i thought you were a ninja...' yea... and you wanted to fight me or something? irg.
Tuesday, October 5, 2004 11:22 a.m.
boo. i got a B on my stats exam :( i know the stuff, i just made stupid mistakes and didn't check them. boo :(
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Your eye color is dark blue. You rely on your logic
solely, and may have more mature interests than
many of your friends and family your age. You
can sometimes also be interverted and lonely
from a lack of understanding with people, and
can be rather frustrated with some types of
folke. Some may describe you as cold and
distant, and you are honest with how you feel
about things.
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Monday, October 4, 2004 08:09 p.m.
Mmmm... i havn't had a bath since i was little :) it was so nice. tho i wish my tub was deeper and my fizzles didn't fizz :( but it was good and cleared up my head :) ready for bed :) night.
Monday, October 4, 2004 04:43 p.m.
sick is pooh :P i'm sitting here, playing mini match and eating canned peaches while listening to janek jackson :) class was icky cuz of my cold, but i have all my work done for once :) no procrastination! i'm going on a run to the store to get some vitamins and bagels in a bit. i've been careful about keeping pills and the such in my place, but i think i'm seriously getting better. life seems more and more hopeful every day :) there is so much here, and it makes me happy :) friends are great :) all of you! ;-) ok... enough sap... back to my mini match. bye!
Monday, October 4, 2004 07:19 a.m.
Oooo... this weekend was really cool, but it ended badly :( my cold got worse and worse as the weekend progressed, and finally last night, i had a horrble migrane and was sick. pooh. but everything else was great :) the drive up to yreka was beautiful :) i got to see their metal cow... odd :) and have you ever heard of 'the state of jefferson' i hadn't til meeting sabrina. very bizarre. so, when we got there, there were these two little girls. i'd never met tehm in my life, but upon arrival, they grabbed me and made me run around and bounce on the trampoline with them. it was fun :) then sabrina and i got really dressed up (i have pictures :) ) and we all went out to see les miserable. it was awsome :) i really like the little girl who played cozette. she sang beautifully :) after we drove back, and i slept. i need more sleep :( ok, and yesterday, we drove to metford, oregon to go to the mall. they have a pet store with pug pupies! they were so cute :) otherwise, it was just like valley fair, but without sales tax :) Ooo... then we drove to ashland, where we met pete and went to exotic stores in their down town. i bought a skirt and a mask for the masquerade next weekend :) i'm going to be a druid, and pete's gunna be a dragon. i dunno what sabrina and jack will be yet... ok, that's about it. after, we ate with sabrina's family, i got really sick, and i slept most of the drive home. yay :) i wanna go back when i'm not sick :) my first time out of state and the firthest i've been from home :) ok. bye :)
Friday, October 1, 2004 11:27 p.m.
geeze. casino's suck. my lungs really brun cuz of the second hand smoke filling the room. i can barely brethe without my lungs hurting :( and i lost all the money they gave me... that was fun tho :) i like slots :) and sabrina did really well on a phantom of the opera slot machine :) she was so excited. it was fun, i just wish people wouldn't smoke in such a badly ventalated room. i hurt :( tomorrow tho, i'll be in clear air yrika :) ahhh. i can't wait :) this is going to be a fun weekend. :) bye
Friday, October 1, 2004 01:39 p.m.
college is so much greater than high school. there is so much to do and so many great people here :) in a few hours, craig is doing a casino trip to some 18 and older casino in orville :) should be fun. they're giving us money too :) muhahaha... :) ooo, this morning tho, life here wasn't so great. sabrina, jack and i were walking to school and this guy walked by talking to himself. i had no clue that's what he was doing i only hear him say something and since people are so nice and friendly, i assumed he said hellp or good morning, and said hi back. then he stopped and started talking to me, and i didn't know what to do cuz i don't like being mean to people... so i responded. dumb. he said he was looking for a wife... and i was like, uh, we have to go to class. and he was like, class on friday? i bet there are lots of pretty women on campus. and i waws scaired. so we started walking and he followed us for a while, but we walked really fast and he gave up. that was not fun. so much for being friendly. maybe just to people who look my own age then :) otherwise, i'm in a good mood :) i got another A on an english paper, i got an A on my presentation in communications, but only a B on my paper :P and... philosophy was boring. the teacher is always looking at me, i know he knows that i know the answer, but i don't wanna talk. there are so many people in that class, and they already know i'm different cuz i'm the only one who says rational stuff in small disscussions and i finished my test in 15 minutes... don't wanna be singled out anymore. i forgot the point of this :) byebye then!
Thursday, September 30, 2004 01:59 p.m.
nah ha! i shall conquor the world! :) i got a B+ on my hostory exam! :) pooh on my D's for the quizes :P see, i do know stuff :) as of yesterday i have a c+ in communications, but we did out presentation yestday and i think it went well :) i talked a little too fast tho... but i do that :) i'm a in a good mood. i'm kinda sick :P but it's not so bad :) we might go to a dance club this weekend :) i'm excited :) i wanna swing! i love swing dancing :) and we're learing the tango :) slow slow quick quick draw! Oooo... sexy :) lol... except there's this turn, and everytime i do it, i'm all disoriented after. fun for my partner :) lol. it's fun tho :) i love dancing! i'm getting in shape cuz of all the walking and the dancing :) trading fat for muscle! no freshman 15 for me! :) yee hee... a little hyper :) what else...? nothing much... hum :) i get to ride sabrina's sister, crystal,'s hourse when we go to yrika this weekend :) yee :) hum. i should start my history so i have no homework this weekend! bye :)
Wednesday, September 29, 2004 07:19 a.m.
:) no reason for posting. just wanted to. hi :) so, umm... i'll tell you what's happening i guess :) let's see... class today. presentation in communications. i'm scaired :) tho, not so much. the class is nice and the teacher is really nice. they won't laugh... much :) tonight, ballrooom dance :) love it :) tomorrow, stats test and the debate which i found out is a mock bush kerry debate :( pooh. i wanted to see them in person. but we're going anyways :) Ooo... we went out last night and watched the sun set at the frolf course, very pretty :) tho hard to get back to the car in the dark. flashlights next time! so, we're gunna go do that again on friday. tho earlier so there'll be enough light to take good pictures... ya :) then, saturday, my first day of really working with the seniors. i'm excited :) but nervous too... :( don't want to mess anything up... and after we're done there, jack, sabrina, and i are driving up to yrika to visit :) yay. there ya go :) ok... bye!
Tuesday, September 28, 2004 08:14 p.m.
ah! i've been an ungrateful little snot. gunna start by saying i'm sorry mommie. i was a butt :( tho i'll be calling her to appologive long before she sctually read this, but there it is :) ok, the beginning: so sabrina, jack and i decided it'd be cool if we lived together next year. so, we wanted to buy a house (cuz it's a really good investment here in chico, and renting is pooh). we started looking just to see what was around, but ended up finding the prefect house. it was really nice :) but i'm not gunna talk about it cuz i need to fall out of love with it :( ok... so, we wanted to move in next semester cuz we could only get it for cheap right now. i called my parents to get their help and was met with absolute refusal. and i threw a hissy fit... i'm really sorry :( i don't mean most of what i said :( only the part about the wasteful guns... geez, i feel so bad. but this was like the first thing i've actually cared about in a long time. something i actually wanted. cuz, honestly, i don't really care that much about college or working or doing anything. tho i loved working with the seniors. i guess that's my reason for trying to get good grades: i want to help them. but yea... so, my depression was ellivated, and i was actually excited about something. and it made me really mad that they wouldn't help me do this thing i really wanted. but yeah. i calmed down, sabrina's mom informed us that the odd angles of the house might make it hard to sell later, and i got rational (i'm lucky my parents are paying my way through college, i might not be here in two years if i don't make it into nursing, i don't have any way of paying for anything or paying my parents back...ect) and now i'm trying to get over it. sabrina and i talked about it, and her dad can buy a house (since he loves investing so) and we can all rent from him :) yay solution! now, i just need to tell my mommie i'm sorry. i don't even remember most of what i said, i feel like such a pooh. :( ok. gunna do that in 40 minutes... byebye
Sunday, September 26, 2004 10:11 p.m.
i need to take out my trash. i'm such a slob :) just wanted to pint that out... :) i've had bad migranes the past two days. i'm so glad i don't have one today. tho if i don't go to sleep soon.. pooh :P been having such trouble sleeping... don't wanna. but i gotta.. i'm just babbling to avoid it.. :) i want a puppy or a kitty :( right now! pets are so fun :) i'm cold, but i can't sleep without the air conditioner on since opening my window is potentially dangerous... pooh again :) ok.. bye!
Sunday, September 26, 2004 04:32 p.m.
ah! a night in italy :) beautiful orchestra :) totally worth the expensive tickets :) makes me wanna pick up the horn again :)i think i might too... maybe next semester :) depends on how hard i try to catch up this semester :) ok... stuff to do... tho not really :) i'm hungry! bye
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Saturday, September 25, 2004 04:45 p.m.
working with the seniors today was wonderful :) i went to windchime at 8 this morning. didn't get lost :) i sat on the couch in their lobby, and they kept coming out to look at me. it was silly :) i put shirts on some of the seniors. oh, duh :) should tell you what we did first :) we had a walk for... dunno. like a cancer walk, but i... oh. they gave me a free shirt, i can walk over there and see... a heart walk :) orange shirts :) so, i help some of them get shirs on. then i sat cuz the lady told me to sit :) we rode over to chico state. and basically what i did was wheel a nice lady around the college. we looked at squirrels :) she thought they were really interesting. me too :) so i pointed all i saw out to her. it was fun :) plus they fed us :) lol. free shirt and sandwich, i'm sold :) next week, we're working at the home. probably art projects or games or something :) i'm really looking forward to it :) i'm getting a good look at what the work would be if i became a nurse too. it looks like stuff i'd enjoy. bathroom helping might be odd, but i can do anything :) lol. so yeah. after, sabrina and i went to target and bought more car cleaning stuff cuz i left it in the car in vacaville. i bought some dog treats for Q :) cuz they have a pug shaped squeeky toy, and i know he'll love to beat up the pug :) heh. she washed her 'jag' :) we sat, talked and played mille bourne. this is a long post... oh, i tried to do some homework somewhere in there, but ended up napping instead. what a long day :) and it's no where near over :) sabrina is out eating with her parents. they're really nice :) and tonight, we're gunna rent mean girls :) should be interesting. poor jack :) ok. long post is over now :) bye!
Friday, September 24, 2004 08:25 p.m.
pete didn't come down, we didn't go to the dance, and i feel really sick. but for some odd reason, i'm not upset. i would like to have a good dance partner. wouldn't go to the dance without one. pete will come down another weekend. this headache will go away when i sleep, and all will be right with the world :) i'm taking control of my situations :) lol. i'm looking forward to tomorrow. my first day at the convalescent home. they're doing a marathon. it should be fun :) later!
Friday, September 24, 2004
woo. i'm tired. i've been having trouble getting to sleep these past few days. too much to think about? not really. i dunno. much goes on today... let's see... english will be boring peer review. big test in communications. i better do well this time :P philosophy will probably be boring like usual. after classes, go to health center and get my tb results. bring them to cave. homeagain... probably homework, so my weekend's free. this evening, peter's coming and sabrina, jack, pete and i are going to another swing dance :) no wallflower this time! lol. right. that's about it. i'm tired :P ok. bye
Thursday, September 23, 2004 11:44 a.m.
lol. nice people suck :P i was totally prepared to close my accounts with wells fargo and open new ones at wachington mutual, but i had to have a nice banker. she fixed everything, gave me back the money they were stealing from me, and convinced me to both keep my savings account open AND apply for a credit card. nice people. hrumph! :) not that i mind or anything :) i was gunna get an aa card. at least this way i can bitch at them in person rather than over the phone :) yep :) someone out in the hall is whistling that song... 'me and you, and you and me. no matter how they toss the dice...' very odd :) ok. i'm hungry and i have some work i don't have to get donw today, but i thought it'd be nice :) i'm hoping to do dancing again tomorrow evening :) i hope peter comes down again... :) bye!
Wednesday, September 22, 2004 09:46 p.m.
i danced with the most amazing partner ever! :) it's so wonderful to dance with someone who knows what he's doing. it was like his goal was to make me as dizzy as possible :) and i didn't mess up much :) no stepping on toes :) we improvised when i messed up, and it all went well. i love dancing :) yea. on a less than happy note, i did really badly on my communications quiz today :( i dunno why. the questions were just hard :( pooh. i hope i do better on the history test tomorrow. wish me luck :) bye!
Tuesday, September 21, 2004 09:22 p.m.
it's lateish. i should betrying to sleep since i didn't go to sleep til after 11 yesterday cuz sabrina and i couldn't sleep, so we grabbed jack and played cards and talked for a while... a while... more like three hours :) whatever. probably not again tonight. they need sleep :) not me... i'm rambling :) i've been doing that a lot today. so, the tb test was nothing. it didn't even hurt. it was done in like a second. good thing they stole so much of my blood in the hospital. toughened me up :P then the lecture was quite interesting. rice. yea :) but really, it was interesting. i just don't remember anything. good thing i wrote it all down. i just finished my homework. i was going to read, but i dunno. i feel like something's missing. i'm angry because my life is being messed with again and by the same person too. i dunno if i can deal with that. might never be able to be friends again. too painful. rambling again. but that's what's been on my mind all day. this new life, and what i'm making it. i have the potential for new love. i have new friends. tho i still want to keep my old ones :) they should come visit me :) four hour drive. right :) what was i talking about? oh. new life :) yes. there is so much for me right now if i just decide to go for it, but i have to let some old things go. i dunno what i'm talking about now. maybe i should sleep. but i feel like typing right now. lol. could write my history paper... naw :) i'll go... bye :)
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
we each make the choice whether to be happy or sad. i choose to be happy, and no one can take that from me.
Tuesday, September 21, 2004 11:09 a.m.
and so commences day two of hectic week. tho today might not be so bad. class is over for today. i have tons of homework to do for the next four hours. at three, i'm meeting sabrina. we're getting tb tests :( i'm so scaired. we had orientation for friendship circle yesterday evening, and there were these older people who must have known we were new cuz they kept glancing at us while telling about how they bled when they go their tb tests. pooh. scaired :( at least my interview went well yesterday :) he was impressed that i was there cuz i'm prenursing and want to get into geriatrics :) yay. yea... then after the test, sabrina jack and i are gunna do our ballroom dance homework together (cuz we only have one book, $20 for a dumb dance book is too much :P )and we're gunna make brownies hopefully :) it's really cold again today. then around seven, i'm going to a lecture on the origins of rice. interesting :) but it gets me extra credit for history which i really need. i got 16 out of 25 on my quiz :( pooh again. ok. homework time. bye
Monday, September 20, 2004 07:14 a.m.
it's super cold here :( it was like in the 90's a few days ago, and suddently yesterday, it was like 60. pooh :P plus it coninsided with the fixing of my air conditioner, and i didn't realize it. so i was all bundled up in sweaters and my slippers when i realized that it didn't have to be 50 degrees in here :P but i had a cool weekend :) sabrina's friend sean fron somewhere down near napa came up, and we went to the dances and played a lot of cranium :). and yesterday, we went to play frisbee golf. i didn't like the game too much cuz i kept getting dirty :P but the place we went to was so beautiful :) i have pictures! and sabrina's gunna show me how to make them jpegs so i can email them :) yay... yea... i have a really busy week ahead of me. starting with a presentation in communications, a philosophy quiz, and an interview for cave today. fun :) ok... bye :)
Saturday, September 18, 2004 08:53 a.m.
ugh. i feel icky :P we went to the swing dance last night. learning the steps was fun, but when we got to the actual dance, i was a horrible wallflower (according to sabrina). i just felt silly trying to dance when so many people out there were actually good at it. i wanna be good :( i need someone to practice with... after, we stoped in at the salsa dance. it looked really cool, but none of us really knew how to salsa. next time :) so, then we went back to craig and played mille bourne, taboo and cranium... and stayed up late talking. i'm tired :) i'm gunna do some homework till people are awake and call me. today, i dunno what we're doing. shawn has to go to jc penny. jack adn spencer want to play frisbee golf. and various people want to see various movies. yea. ok :) homework! bye
Friday, September 17, 2004 07:23 a.m.
hehe. i get hugs :) thanks joy! if people really do need three significant touches a day, i'm way not reaching my quota. i've made it a point to not have people touch me... good thing, bad thing? dunno. but no touchie :) there was someting i wanted to say, but i can't remember... maybe it'll come to me later when ihvae no computer and can promptly forget it again... :)
Thursday, September 16, 2004 10:26 p.m.
oh yea, i have to get a background check for cave, and i'm nervous. will they tell them about my... uh... i dunno what to call it. incident? plus, i have to get another TB test. yeah, it's free, but i don't wanna :P pooh.
Thursday, September 16, 2004 10:20 p.m.
i'm feeling a little unhappy. i dunno why. i wish i could play my horn, but it's quiet time. i wish other people would respect that :P it's so loud here. i guess i just need to sleep. my english class is cancled for tomorrow, so i'm going to sabrina's class. should be interesting :) gotta study for my communication quiz. tho i think i'll do well :)hum. i'm actually feeling better for writing this. i wish someone was here to talk to. i know there are people all around me at all times, but you can still feel alone when you're not. on a brighter note, apple cherry juice is really good :) doesn't go well with kitkats tho... :-D bye!
Thursday, September 16, 2004 02:35 p.m.
when i'm tired now in the after noon, instead of napping and feeling weird after, i've been meditating. it's really nice :) helps me think clearly. and i realized that if i was still with michael i wouldn't have met the people i have or have had all the experiences. we'd be living the life of poor college newlyweds. not a whole lot of fun there. no going out much either. i'd need to work more and get good grades and take more classes to graduate sooner. as it is, i can spend as much time in college as i feel i need. i dunno what i would choose if i had the choice between the two lives... anyways :) i don't, so oh well :) i like where i am. oh! i picked up my horn from the shop today! and i practiced for about half and hour. i wanna get better, and join a group here at chico. ok. jack's here and we're gunna meet sabrina. bye :P
Wednesday, September 15, 2004 10:48 p.m.
on a randomer note, grape sobes tast like communion... yea.
Wednesday, September 15, 2004 10:44 p.m.
i could have danced all night, i could have danced all night and still have begged for more... well, i kinda did :) three hours of dance class. so fun! and we're going to at least two dances and/or clubs this weekend. maybe a rave in saccramento :) and a salsa her in chico :) so excited :) yea... someone came in my room and stole my chair and left a new chair. that bugs me. and sabrins said that they could do searches any time they want. scary :P go away people! i don't even like the maids cuz they throw my stuff around. phoo :P ok:) me like danceeeeeee.... j'aime beaucoup danser!!! :) yea... night!
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
i've had bad dreams the past two nights... yesterday's made me sad all day, today's will probably just make me moody :P pooh. my eyes are all bloodshot too. i'm tired :P
Monday, September 13, 2004 01:20 p.m.
i've been feeling kinda sick all day. ice cream for breakfast was probably a bad idea :P i'll get the hang of this whole fend for yourself thing eventually :) in the mean time... little debbie snack cakes!!!
Monday, September 13, 2004
i'm tired. so woozy... sabrina called me last night when i was sleeping, and other than that, i don't remember anything. i hope i didn't say anything dumb... i don't wanna go to school today. want more weekend :P wanna sleep... wanna get caught up with stupid history homework. dumb dumb :P yea. but i gotta. bye
Sunday, September 12, 2004
i am so tired. but i'm back in chico :) i drove my dad's station wagon. nice reliable car :) tho no chick magnet... not that i'm looking for chicks :) yea... i'm really tired :) my head aches. i had a really fun day :) i met joy, jr, chiro and jacob (with cleo) to play volleyball. where was jared??? he missed out on my pretty made-up face ;) lol. after, we played taboo :) love that game... then, jacob and chiro left, and then final four of us went to mimi's cafe. never been there before. it was really nice :) tho i didn't really like my food all that much. but the starting bread was amazing :) yea.. i have homework to do for tomorrow. bye
Saturday, September 11, 2004
boy, do i got a story for you... so, i got about 5 or so miles out of chico before my car overheated... i was sitting in the car thinking 'why didn't i listen to everyone and stay home when i knew my car wasn't working right?'... twenty minutes later, i'm on my way to san jose again. smart :) i overheated a couple more times, and nice people kept pulling over to ask if i needed help. it took me three hours to get 80 miles... fun :) and i got really dehydrated cuz it was so hot and i had the heater on the whole way. finally, in my delerium, i somehow ended up lost in davis... so, i went to carls jr to gt a drink and stare at my map. some nice guy came up and asked if i needed help finding a street in davis. he helped me find my way again, but the car overheated again when i tried to leave. i sat, i read... it was boring. then the car was going really well for, and i tought things were finally going to work out... and then the engine shut off and smoke started pouring out. it was so scary. so, there i was, in vacaville, 100 miles away from both chico and san jose. what did i do? duh, i called my mommie. but she said there was nothing she could do... so i got a room at this motel that was near where i broke down. the room was so gross and dirty. i have pictures :) then my mom called, saying that greg would come get me. so, i paid $60 for nothing... i had about 2 hours to wait, so i walked around town a bit. i took pictures of random stuff like the weird shaped pipes by the road and a funky tree... and i went to a book store and bought walden cuz i'd really like to finish it... yea, then greg, mom and laura came to get me :) rescued! and home we went. there's my adventure :) my car's still there tho... i think i'm gunna get a new car... and treat this one better than the last. i'm really tired... mom and i wnt shopping today... i got stuff, i can't remember what tho... another bathing suit, and a tank top to wear under my new dress... some rice crispy treats too :) yea. i was happy to see my dog :) and everyone else of course. tho i'd like it to be less stressful next time :) ok. see everyone tomorrow, 10am at john d. probably last time you'll all see me before you go off to college :) bye!
Thursday, September 9, 2004
i burned my tongue on a hotpocket... it hurts :( but it kinda tastes good. odd :) i have an english paper and history homework to get caught up on. bye!
Thursday, September 9, 2004
as joy has pointed out to me, we're playing on SUNDAY... SUNDAY... not saturday. if you show up, we won't be there :) i'm going shopping on saturday... i'm so out of it. i want this week to be over. i want weekend and next weekend. next weekend is my initiation into eee. pete is coming down again, and we're having a party. i get presents and it isn't even my birthday :) lol. it's gunna be odd. i don't like being the center of attention. tho, if you're reading this right now, i'm the center of yours... go away :P you're in my space, and you smell! hehehe... ok. class in half an hour. gotta go. bye!
Thursday, September 9, 2004
lol. that's i'm coming home, and volleyball is on saturday... right! tina needs sleep...
Thursday, September 9, 2004
everything is so good right now :) i got back from ym first ballroom dancing class a while ago. it was so fun :) i love dancing. i can now swing dance, and we're learning the fox trot too :) i'm coming how this weekend :) excited... ah. volleyball at 10am at john d if anyone's interested. show up :) ok. i'm really tired. night!
Monday, September 6, 2004
fuck. i just wrote out an entire page of entry, and when my cd was done downloading, it got erased. i'm not doing that again :P pooh.
Sunday, September 5, 2004
i'm tired :) i woke up at 6 this morning and couldn't remember if i'd slept or not. i had a really fun day yesterday :) in the morning, sabrina, peter and i went out to breakfast at a waffle place near the mall. their french toast was soooo good. even better than effies'. after, we found josh, and the four of us walked around down town. i bought a dress... $60 dress. but it's beautiful!!! and i found a handbag that matches it in an antique store. :) when jack got off work, the five of us drive out to bidwell park to find a swimming hole. we didn't find one, but bidwell is so beautiful. we ended up wading up the stream (river?) a while. is was really fun :) after, we a got dressed up (i woar the new dress :) ) and went out to a place called spice creek cafe. it was a gorgeous cafe, but really expensive. then we walked to cold stone. after dinner, we had planned to go see the parties, but yesterday, sabrina had a bad experience with a drunk (and i wasn't there to save her :( i feel so bad) so instead, we went swimming for a while, and then watched an art film peter bought while we wandered down town. all in all , a wonderufl day :) that's all... bye :)
friday, September 3, 2004
heh. i was looking at other people's blogs thinking 'how come no one ever updates...' then i was like duh. hipocrite :) i don't either. so, here i am. what's been hapening?... nothing much. the fun is about to begin. i'm out of class til tuesday. sabrina's friend, peter is coming in a few hours from oregon. we're gunna go out tonight. he's supposed to be totally void of inhibitions about, like, i dunno how to describe it... i guess whatever it is that keeps you from saying 'you smell' to someone with b.o. i dunno :) so fun with the drunks tonight should be interesting :) we were going to drive down to la to see an art museum which would have been really cool, but it finally hit us that laborday weekend driving would be icky. plus jack has to work :( oh well. some other time. same for tubing on the river. dangerous with all the people who come to chico over this weekend to do it. so, we'll find relaxing thingsto do here. lots o ftime in the pool :) ok :) yea... i'm thinking of joining ballroom dancing :) sabrina conviced me to come to her class next week. we'll see :) and i'm joining this group called cave, that does voulenteer work. i'm joining two of their programs which is 6 hours a week working with the elderly. that should be enough to figure out whether or not geriatrics is for me :) i really hope i like it :) ok. longish post, i'm gunna go find sabrina. bye :)
tuesday, aug 31 2004 watch out, the computer will lie to you
wow. it's amazing how fast my day can turn. all i needed was the threat that if i can't deal with my moods on my own, i'm ging to have to take medicine. that got me. so, i left and found sabrina, who was in her room waiting for jack to get back from his job interview. we talked a while, and then decided to go find him and get some food. he got back just as we went out to find him. he got the job :) a sales job... i dunno any more about it. so, to celebrate, we went out to red lobster. great salmon :) then we came back here. and i found that my camera's here :) i took pictures. if you want any, email me :) yea, then we went out to play pool... i played really badly. it is really hurting my arm to play... yeah. i'm not really tired right now... but i should go to sleep soon. bye :)
tuesday, aug 31, 2004
wait a second, it's not wednesday. that's odd...
Wednesday, September 1, 2004
i really miss michael for some reason, and it was making me unhappy. but then i went to play yugioh with the guy down the hall, and he really pissed me off. so, i came back here to sulk. but then i forgot why i was mad, and just got over it. so i went back to see if he still wanted to go to the yugioh tournament, and he said no. i was sad before, but i'm majorly depressed now. i really need to find some way to get out of my room. but i don't wan to go out alone. i dunno what to do.
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
aah. class over for today :) i like having morning classes. tho i may have to start drinking coffee or something to be ready for english first thing. i harassed cns (my phone service) after class. guess what? they gave me the wrong phone number. yep :) so, if you'd like my number, email me :) i have bagel bites :) i always do them wrong when i follow the instructions on the box, so this time i just nuked them. a little hot :) but yummie... ok. bye :)
Monday, August 30, 2004
i had a dream in which michael and i got back together. i've tried so hard not to think about him, cuz doing so makes me sad, but i still do. and i feel sad
Monday, August 30, 2004
someone's car alarm is going off right now, and it's really annoying...
Sunday, August 29, 2004
i woke at 7 after falling asleep sometime after 3, and was like wha.... no. yea. so i went back to sleep and woke again at 9. i'm all sore. for some reason, playing so much pool is really hurting my arm. dunno :) i finished my com homework, and have 60 plus pages to read for history. that's what i'm doing this morning. later today, we're gunna try finding bidwel park again. hope we do. it should be really pretty :) yep :) bye
Sunday, August 29, 2004
yar. so it's 3 in the morning, and i don't feel like sleeping. so, i'll talk about my day :) it was very nice day :) sabrina and jack came to steal me away from my computer around noonish or so. we decided to look for bidwell park which is supposed to be really cool. so, we walked around chico a while, and didn't find it. but we did find this really cool house, that we all fell in love with. but the guy wanted over half a million for it, so, we'll see :) lol. but it was really nice. it was really hot tho. so, after, we went to chico mall. i bought a shirt, shoes, and a yugio deck :) lol... how sad :) but i wanna learn. oh! and bath and body works had a nice soap sale, so i bought 4... yum :) after, we took a break. i can back here and did chores. we met again for lunch with james. and then watched big fish. i really liked it :) what did we do next?... ah. we went out around 9 looking for parties, but i guess they start later on saturday than friday, so we went back home, and found josh and spencer, and play cranium. sabrina and i totally beat the guys :) it was fun. then we played life, i lost. then spencer ran off, and the four of us left sat and talked for a few more hours. and now, here i am :) i'm not really tired. i think i'm gunna try to get some communications homework done :) ok. night!
Saturday, August 28, 2004
hahaha! i have internet :) and phone service, but it doesn't seem to be receiving incoming calls. gunna have to harass snc again... yea :) so, last night i went to see hero with sabrina, jack, spencer, josh, david and his girlfriend, who i think was named ashley, i don't really remember. nor do i care. i'm angry about that, but i don't really want to go into it. i've just decided that i'm not going to leave myself open to getting hurt anymore. people suck, and tho they may say they would never hurt you, they will. yeah. ok. no more depressing thoughts. what have i done today? a lot actually. it's 11, and i've been awake since some time around 8... i've done my english and phychology homework. i still have communications and a lot of make up work for history cuz i missed the first day. i misread my schedule :P dumb. then i took out the trash (finally...) and vaccumed since quiet time was over. yea, and tho i promised myself i wouldn't connect the internet til i finished my homework, here i am :) the bboys are outside talking really loudly... have i mentioned them? don't remember. well, they're some guys from the bay area (like me!) who like to randomly go out into the hall and yell, 'btown!' it's so bumb... but mildly amusing :) yep. so i like it here. i decided, tho not set in stone, that i'm going to apply to the nursing program here and if i don't get in, i'm gunna switch to psychology. yep :) ok. i'm getting tiredish. bye!
Sunday, August 22, 2004
wow.. my first real taste of "college" or at least what chcio college is famous for. i managed somehow to find, so for, what i consider the only sober people in chico :) so, when everyone goes to the frat parties to get drunk, we're there to laugh at the drunks. interesting, eh? i think so. but last night, i went out with jack and spencer, and spencer wanted to drink. he's not a bad guy, i guess i was wrong in assuming that all people who drink are eveil. so, we walked around looking for somewhere to find him a drink. our first stop was actually pretty cool. this placem had a hudge driveway full of people listening to a live band. really cool :) too bad there were scary tipsy people there. plus someone had the bright idea to spray the crowd with beer. really gross :P yea. next we found a sorority (bad spelling there?) where they charged for drinks :P but as we'd had no luck yet, we stoped, spencer got his drink. it was pretty boring for me. i don't understand how people enjoy these parties. all the do is stand around and drink. no dancing, no real conversation except flirting, it seems so boring. yeah. after, we just wandered around, and came to a house where they had free drinks. oh well. but we stayed there so spencer could finish and not be caught in possession. and there we met stinky peete. yea... he was really drunk, and icky. so finally, i got sick of being hit on, and we left. one stop at the 7/11. then home, where i took a shower, and we watching some comedy show till like 2am. parted, and i couldn't sleep. so, here i am with like no rest, class starts tomorrow, and, i dunno, i feel like i've done something wrong. maybe i have. all i know is i learned that it's going to be really easy to not drink, and i have the opportunity to make sure my friends don't get into any trouble out there. hum. ok. that's all :) i feel weird. hungry... :) bye!
Friday, August 20, 2004
good morning? bleh. i'm so tired. and my head is achy. it's actually cold in here. the mornings are misleading. yea, so i found out that my computer won't be here til late next week :( *sniff* no email til then. i wish i could check on these. i'm angry. well, not really :) just tired... i hope i sleep better tonight. bye
Friday, August 20, 2004
chico! it's hot here, and i have no air conditioning and no computer. and i'm complaining a lot :) no phone either... but if you call my old number and ask nicely, my mom will give you my new number which doesn't work yet :) plus i can't check my email on this computer, which is really annoying since i have like 5... boo :P on a more positive note, i actually met people :) they, of course, approached me when i was eating all alone in the mess, and they seem really nice :) we have another welcome tomorrow. and it's 3am. i should be sleeping. i was, but there were really loud people outside and it's hot... and i was thirsty, and i have no water, so i drank a bunch of soda... bad move... :) now i feel icky. oh well :) byebye
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
i'm ok. we're not together, but we're still friends. and not wanting to kill each other :) anymore... :-D i'm almost looking forward to the move. it's scary, but it's like an adventure... not that i'm good at those :) but i can do it!
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
so, michael and i got back together again two weeks ago, and yesterday we broke up again. i don't really know what i'm going to do. i love him so much, and it's hard to just give that up. i'm leaving tomorrow for chico. i'm seeing him this afternoon. i don't know whether i should fight him on this or just let it go. i was up late last night making a list of reasons why i love him and we should be together, but would it be better if i just didn't and let him go? i don't want to. i always thought he was the one, and we would be together forever. now, i really don't know. i want to do what's best, but i don't know what is. i guess we'll see...
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
irg. pitas sucks. good luck figuring out that mess :P i dunno why return never works...
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
hum. i don't usually do these things, but i havn't written in a while and i feel the need to do something :) stealing from joy :) here goes...
a - age: 18
b - band listening to right now: counting crows
c - career future: nursing is the goal right now
d - dad's name: stanly
e - easiest person to talk to: michael
f - favorite song: i don't think i have one
g - gummy bears or gummy worms: worms :)
h - hometown: san jose
i - instruments: trumpet, trombone, baritone, tuba, french horn, and a few weeks ago i started teaching myself flute. but i'm not really good at any :)
j - job: no thank you :P
k - kids: not yet :)
l - longest car ride ever: hum. to chico? no, on the way home from chico when traffic wasn't moving for over half an hour...
m - mom's name: deborah
n - no. of people you slept with: does pinky count? :) no... he's a bear. duh
p - phobia(s): i don't believe in phobias :P
q - quote: moo?
r - reason to smile: i'm alive, and there are reasons to keep living
s - song you sang last: cleo and i randomly break out into shannadoah every once in a while...
t - time you wake up: between 8 and 10, but that'll change in two weeks :P
u - unknown fact about me: hum. i dunno. probably arn't any i'd like to share :P
v - vegetable you hate: most... i guess all except carrots, artichokes, cucombres... dunno :)
w - worst habit: i have so amny bad habits. probably, the worst is i let my anger control me
x - x-rays you've had: teeth and probably something when i fell off my bike, but i wasn't awake
y - yummy food: artichokes!
z - zodiac sign: taurus... moo! :)
First Kiss: umm... andy when i was like 7? but i denied everything...
First job: dog walking for my neighbor a few years ago
First screen name(s): tinatrumpet
First self purchased CD: pink? maybe dido
First funeral: never been to one
First pets: angus the pug :( he dies ov a stroke a few years ago...
First piercing: ears
First true love: aj but you know how that goes
First big trip: chico! how sad :)
First musician you remember hearing in your house: i dunno. we used to have lots of music toys, so, me! :)
Last big car ride: chico
Last kiss: michael
Last good cry: michael, yesterday.
Last movie seen: cleo and i were just watching my big fat greek wedding. i saw bourne supremacy with michael last week
Last beverage drank: sunny delight :) cali style
Last food consumed: bagel with creme cheese
Last phone call: hum. michael? i don't remember
Last TV show watched: who's line is it anyways? :)
Last shoes worn: wearing cloth flip flops right now
Last CD played: a bare naked ladies that i burned
Last item bought: a shirt with speedy gonzalas on it :) oh and a closet organizer...
Last disappointment: lol. no comment. none of you business :P
Last soda drunk: root beer
Last ice cream eaten: hum... havn't for a while. i think my last was mc donalds...
ok. hope y'all learned something :) bye!
Saturday, July 24, 2004
i actually feel normal right now :) i had a fun time playing mini golf with cleo and joy and then playing around in the arcade at golf land. it was great. :) i still feel sad about loosing michael and i miss him alot. but i realize that the relationship wasn't incredibally healthy and i'm leaning to cope without him. i went to the library today and got a book about dealing with loss and i hope it will help me. i really think getting out a san jose will help too. i need new things. new everything. i can't wait for school to start.
Friday, July 2, 2004
i'm feeling pretty good. right now, i'm going through all my music files and determining which ones i want to take to chico. funfun. group today was really boring. for some reason, i didn't want to be there. after, i went to see dodgeball for my second time. this time with michael. the friendship thig with him is starting to work now that we know how we stand, i've stoped trying to get us back together and he's stoped making me feel bad when i'm with him, and, for now, that fights have stoped :) things are going good :) tomorrow, mommie, cleo and i are going to the library, and after cleo and i are going to meet joy and maybe other people (i don't really know) at san thomas. i'm too cowardly to call to rsvp, so i hope you see that i'm coming, joy :) i havn't called anyone. i'm too afraid still. but i'll get over it. i think there was a fire on 17 today. there was lots of smoke and both sides were stopped up. it was annoying :P my arms are getting really icky tanned. i hate it. i'm gunna have melanoma when i'm 24 like my cousin :( pooh. ok. that's basically what's been hapening today :) bye!
Thursday, July 1, 2004
hum. so more than a week's passed since my last post, and no one responded. that's ok, i'm not mad. just a little disappointed. but i guess no one really reads this anymore, so what did i expect :) but it's all ok. i just got back from chico orientation. it was really great. i actually met someone, and i got some really good classes: english, american history, intro to phychology, small group communications, and statistics. prenursing is cool too. but i don't think anyone in my major will be getting very friendly cuz nursing at chico is impacted and we're all competing for the 40 slots. *sigh* i wish i could move there now. chico is so nice :) a bit hot, but with my pool, all will be good :) ok, that's all for now! bye :)
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
well, it's been a long time since i've written. and so much has happened. most importantly in the past month, and i'm finally ready to be honest and i dunno... tell the truth :) that would be nice :) so, michael and i broke up a month ago. which was really hard cuz he's been pratically the only person i've seen outside of school these past two years. i think the biggest mistake i made when i was with michael was loosing my friends. for which i am so sorry. i have many more individual apologies, but those are best done in person :) just know that if i wronged you, i am sorry and would make it up to you. so, when we broke up, i didn't know what to do. i was was totally lost. unable to deal with loosing him and move on with my life, i tried to end it. i oded and spent over a week in a hospital missing graduation, beach day, and everything in between. i have been diagnosed with depression although it is reactionary rather than a chemical imbalance, so far as we know, which means that when extreme change hit, i didn't know how to deal with it, and it launched my depression. now, i'm going to therapy five days a week from 9 to 12:30, and now comes my reason for writing :) i don't care how pathetic i sound in asking this, i only hope someone will read it and respond. part of my recovery depends on me keeping busy and having supportive people around me. so, i was hoping to rejoin the living and rekindle some lost friendships :) all i am asking is that if anyone makes plans and would like to include me, i would really like it :) i'm open to anything and everything as long as i can fit it in my schedule. basically that's any time other than 9-12:30 on weekdays :) so, my cell's 799-3431 but i can't check my messages. to leave me a message, call 289-1779. thanks everyone for reading this and for any help you can give me even if it's only a kind thought heading my way. bye :)
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
i came online and forgot why...
Sunday, March 21, 2004
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Sunday, March 21, 2004
yep. i'm a light. they're trying to say i'm smart :) or maybe i'm shiny... whichever. it's early, and i'm tired.
Sunday, March 21, 2004
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Saturday, March 20, 2004
zzz... ya. i'm stressy about the senior project. i should've started it earlier :P but i'll get it done! i have one month. exactly. but one week of it is vacation, so i can't edit video... stress... :P oh well. everything will work out :) byebye
Sunday, March 7, 2004
moo, i say. yes i do. i just finished reading everyone's xangas and whatevers cuz i havn't been online in a forever. dunno why i'm writing this. havn't anything to say. but something will come to me :) i wrote a story today. it was for an autobiographical narritive for english. i actually enjoyed it. i'm thinking of, instead of the doctor route, becoming a teacher... maybe an english teacher. tho, i still don't really like kids. but, hey, maybe that'll change :) you never know... everything else does. it's march. i'm really hating the senior project. it would be so easy to do... if i would just do it. but i have this fear of talking to people and, especially, asking them for favors. favors that i'll never repay. sigh. i'm getting pokemon saphire :) i'm excited! :) and a gameboy advance sp... black :) probably not the best thing to buy when i'm already having trouble staying on task, but whatever :P pooh on you! or not :) ok... have i run out of things to say?... hum. yeah, i guess i am. i'm gunna get all ranty-philosophical if i keep going. so, i hope everyone's doing ok :) bye!
Monday, February 23, 2004
the end of another vacation. and since vacation equals funky sleep schedule, i'm really tired. zzz... yea. time is moving fast. soon'll be graduation and funfun apartment shopping :) i had a song stuck in my head, and it just started playing... how odd :) today's the greatest day i've even known...
Thursday, January 29, 2004
disheartened by the senior project... :( stupid Q has to be a man-eater, so i can't use him for my project. i'm down to a cat... at least he's friendly :P mrah! ok :) bye
Monday, January 26, 2004
slooooooooow internet... :) i'm tired. i went to bed early, but i had this very involved dream which makes me feel like i barely slept at all... dream... basically, i was in a nazi pow camp but everyone was a kid... it was weird. it's munnday :P i had a very nice weekend tho :) played a lot of diciples with michael. um hum. well, bye :)
Friday, January 23, 2004
internet! finally :) ah... so, had finals yesterday. the first day's (chem, english, and french) sucked, but i think i did really well on gov and trig yesterday :) i'm hungry... we don't have school today :) i get to be lazy and hang out with michael :) a three-day weekend without homework! heaven :) ok... bye :)
Sunday, January 11, 2004
i'm awake! michael's still asleep :) i havn't been online much lately. my computer at home doesn't go on line anymore. i guess cuz the blaster worm did it in. i dunno what to do :( *yawn* so, hi :) ok. bye!
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
the bird came back, my love. :)
Friday, December 26, 2003
ah. vacation :) christmas yesterday... drove to ripon with mom, cleo, and michael :) on the way back, we were attacked by a killer tumble weed. and it was pouring rain. so scary. it was a good day tho :) well. bye
Friday, December 12, 2003
*to the tune of the congo line song* chico chico chic-oh! chico chico chic-oh! :) i got accepted :)ok... computer will crash in 48 seconds. bye!
Saturday, November 22, 2003
i held a crying child until he was comforted. i never thought something like that would make me happy.
Thursday, November 20, 2003
I hear the wind call your name
It calls me back home again
It sparks up the fire - a flame that still burns
Oh it's to you I'll always return
I still feel your breath on my skin
I hear your voice deep within
The sound of my lover - a feeling so strong
It's to you - I'll always belong
Now I know it's true
My every road leads to you
And in the hour of darkness darlin'
Your light gets me through
Wanna swim in your river - be warmed by your sun
Bathe in your waters - cos you are the one
I can't stand the distance - I can't dream alone
I can't wait to see you - Ya I'm on my way home
Oh I hear the wind call your name
The sound that leads me home again
It sparks up the fire - a flame that still burns
Oh, it's to you - I will always return
i love you michael, i always will.
Tuesday, November 18, 2003
huh. in the past eight years, this is the longest i've ever gone without playing any of my instruments. after three months, i picked up the horn yesterday cuz concert band starts today. it was interesting. i used to be really good at getting the low notes, i guess getting it back will take time. well, have a nice day everyone. bye
Thursday, November 13, 2003
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Thursday, November 13, 2003
geez i have a headache :( i had weird dreams about michael. the first, i fell asleep when i was waiting for him to call me, and i dreamed i'd hung up on him. so, when he called, i was all appologetic cuz i thought i had. at least i think that was when i was awake... hard to tell. then the second, i couldn't find michael, but i kept finding people whom i'd never met but who knew him. it was really confusing. i wish i'd slept peacefully. i'm gunna be out late. seeing the play, comedie of errors, with michael and nathan. yepyep. well... bye :)
Monday, November 10, 2003
i took the quiz of luck from pravin's site, and got the same results.. odd. my hair will be like this froever. right. actually, no :P i'm really tired. school :P bah. oh well. bye
Saturday, November 8, 2003
wow. it's raining hard. i love rain, but i hate driving in it. especially at night. scary :P ok. saw the matrix :) much better than the second one. tho, i didn't like the new oracle, but she did the ending really well. i cried :( i'm not gunna say when cuz that would give it away, but if you see it, you'll know when i'm talking about. so sad. michael and i had a conversation after about what we would do when the other died. depressing. i hope neither of us do for a long time. ok. french homework for me. good night
Tuesday, November 4, 2003
i got plenty of sleep, but i'm still tired and my head hurts :( today will be a day. i'm hoping i don't get a lot of homework cuz i want to start my sp paper... ms atton gave me an idea for my conclusion. nanny goats for everyone :) right... well, i hope everyone has a good day :) bye
Sunday, November 2, 2003
i lost my tweezers a while ago. so, my eye brows are all shaggy and long... just thought i'd say that. so. saw a funky movie today. dreamcatchers. at first it was really scary and gross, but as soon it turned out to be aliens, it was dumb :P michael hated the ending :) lol... *splat* ok... i'm doing a monologue for english tomorrow. i get to be drunk. right. ho hum. and breakfast (kinda) with cleo and michael in the morning. funfunish. ok. well, bye :)
Monday, October 27, 2003
new phone :) i like it cuz it's colorful and has nice songs. plus the number is the same, so i don't have to learn a new number... :) i actually started research for my senior project on saturday. i got a lot of good stuff :) but not nearly enough for 10 pages... yesterday, michael and i went to this book store i really like and then to valley fare (faire?) where we bought four new computer games. mine really sucks, so i'm gunna steal his :) the time change was nice cuz that extra hours was all i needed :) ok. back to school on this lovely monday morning :P i want bagels. bye :)
Friday, October 24, 2003
huh. i could've sworn i had a entry from last wednesday when i got pulled over. maybe i'm going crazy... eh. so. hum. i have a new cell phone cuz the old one broke... but it's not activated yet, so i dunno the number. *shrug* what else... i'm hungry :) yep. michael has a speech tournament tomorrow. funfun :) tonight, we're going to see veronica guerin :) i'm excuted. and hungry... so, bye
Tuesday, October 7, 2003
eh. i was going to use this as an outlet to get this dream i had out, but i decided i'd rather talk to michael. cuz he can actually do something about it. even if it's only holding me and telling me it'll never happen. this thing isn't really so useful anymore.
Friday, October 3, 2003
mum :) so we ended up sitting around eating croissants and reading french magazines in french. which was nice... in comparison to a test :P chem was hard, and english was stupid :P but oh well. yesterday was also our 16 month anniversary :) we didn't do anything out of the ordinary. got pizza after school, and sat on a blanket at san thomas to eat and be alone. it was nice :) tonight, we're gunna go see a movie. i wanna see underworld, he probably wants to see school of rock. we'll see :) gov quiz today is guaranteed to be hard... :( but after, i get 50 minutes to read in welter's class :) and the trig... :P at least we get out at 11:20! ok. enough blabbing. my post... ok, i sneezed really big and had to run around looking for kleenix. as i was saying... my post... well, it was something about direction. i don't remember. ok. bye :)
Thursday, October 2, 2003
i have a headach cuz i'm sick, and it makes it hard to think. which sucks cuz i have tests in every class today and tomorrow. luckily, advil to the rescue :) but i hate sneezing :P ok. so, i filled out all (one) of my college applications... it was annoying. i hope i did everything right. well... school time :) bye
Saturday, September 27, 2003
what am i doing home at 8:41 on a saturday morning?... well, my mom's going to a dying class in mountain view which i get to drive her to. which also means i'm "baby sitting" cleo today :P why should a 12 year-old need to be watched like she's 5? that's my mom. poor michael tho. we don't even know what we're doing. if we stick to normal and relax and do homework at his house, she'll drive us crazy. so, we'll see. oh well. bye
Thursday, September 25, 2003
i'm headachy... i took a sorta nap at michael's but the respite didn't last long. in general, i'm liking school. chem and trig are boring, but i love atton's gov class and angell's english. i get why everyone thinks she's a bitch, but i like her. french is french... i'm welter's ta... he is even funnier than he was last year :) don't eat mc donald's fat-free food, it'll make your ass run... : right... i still can't wait for college, but at least i'm not dying where i am :) i hope everyone's ok :) bye!
and the date's gone again... well, it's sept. 24... bye
my shoulder feels funny... :) so, yesterday michael and i bought lord of the rings two, but we watched the first one and ate chicken. he cooked :) good chicken :) yeah. nothing much to say. i'm just waiting to graduate... and it's still september :P lol :) patience! bye :)
Wednesday, September 17, 2003
i havn't been online in a while... addicted to a new game :)age of wonders :) michael's fault :P anyways... :) i like collaboration days. i don't wake up any later or leave anylater cuz of cleo, but i get more time in the morning with michael. which is nice :) i took pravin's quiz thing about how 'bay area' i am. i'm only 26%. it's ok tho. cuz this is probably the last year i'll ever be living here... ok. well... drop cleo and doughnut time! bye
Friday, September 12, 2003
hum. this pitas thing is getting kinda pointless. i don't think anyone actually reads it. and when i write, i'm not completely honest. yeah, i woke up early, but what i really want to talk about is how michael and cleo woke me up from a nap yeasterday, and i yelled at them which turned into a big fight between me and michael. in which i said very mean things, which as soon as we made up, he forgave. but those were the kind of things that would stay with me after, and i'm worried that he's still thinking about them when he says he's not. and i dunno what to do. ok. there. honesty. normally, i don't like to post about our fights cuz it's not really anyone's business, but i'm sorta obsessing over this one. ok. well... have a nice day? bye
Friday, September 12, 2003
i woke up 4 minutes before my alarm and was very confused... but here i am :)
Saturday, September 6, 2003
mum :)
Monday, September 1, 2003
ugh. my tummy hurts :( dunno why. probably cuz i didn't eat much today. only steak for breakfast (which i didn't eat too much of) and a hotdog, a few fries, and about half of a blizzard at dq... and i was wondering how i lost 10 pounds in the last year or so... with michael, i end up only eating about two meals a day, if even that. ho hum. ok. bye :)
Sunday, August 31, 2003
and look what that did to my other entries... this really makes me want to give up on online journaling...
Sunday, August 31, 2003
i musta lied or something...
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Sunday, August 31, 2003
i just ate a whole bunch of watermellon, and yet, i'm still really hungry... :P
Sunday, August 31, 2003
:) i spent today with michael up until he had work. then, i sat on a bench outside the dairy queen and ate chicken strips while reading :) i had a really nice day...
Saturday, August 30, 2003
lol. i probably AM as bad as people think i am. i got this from pravin's site. pretty weird :)
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Saturday, August 30, 2003
eh. i have cake and it's making me feel sick cuz it's so sweet... so, michael and i saw uptown girls. it wasn't that great :P i didn't really like any of the characters. tho i liked the main girl a lot more than michael did. we almost got in a fight in the middle of the movie... :-D but they never last. especially with other people around. i miss him, even tho i was just on the phone with him like two minutes ago... :( sappy me. ok. i need a shower :) bye
Friday, August 29, 2003
oh. lol. it was her quoting someone else :) the world is not so confusing :) bye!
Friday, August 29, 2003
*muse* people change. i have a sandwice, so it's not bothering me too much. but juliette used the "f" word! wow. ok... i'm weird. it's just everything was one way. and now, everything is different, and i wasn't paying attention. oh well. after this year and the wedding, i probably won't see anyone ever again... bye
Wednesday, August 27, 2003
so, second day of school :) yesterday: chem was boring, angell is not as scary as everyone says she is, yet... and french was... french. same as last year. the one big difference was after school michael and i did our homework together :) i'm so pround of him :) ee! ok. no mush :) well, byebye :)
Sunday, August 24, 2003
i've had the twilight zone theme stuck in my head for days... do de do do do de do do... i'm hungry :)
Saturday, August 23, 2003
yee hee! internet again :) this probably isn't working, but i'm happy to have fixed my computer so, i'll live with no time stamp :) so, the only interesting thing to have happened to me in the past few days is that i quit band. shocking... eh, well. it's just not as fun as it used to be. but ya know, i don't think i ever really liked marching. i still love playing music and i dunno how i'm gunna survive without. but i'll figure out something for that too :) maybe an outside band or ensemble... hum :) ok. bye!
ah. i don't care. i'm tired. good night.
i am hating this
again...
try try again...
and i'm still trying cuz i can't sleep unless i solve this problem. :P
irg. i dunno what to do :P screw it. i'm tired. good night.
did it work?...
huh. i don't have time stamps... i'll fix that. just so you know, the last two are from today :) er... tuesday? august something... i have a callendar!... 4th. at the tone the time will be 10:23 and some odd seconds.... *beep* ok. i'm done. gunna go fix that. bye!
i printed out the pictures for michael, and since the black ink in my printer is almost out, the pictures were printed in magenta... very odd.
haha! starting gov homework. well... actually just printing stuff out that i'll read later when i'm more awake :) i got my senior portrate pictures :) pretty... ok. bye :)
Saturday, July 26, 2003
michael's gone to riverdale for the weekend :( i'm gunna be all aloneish. which means doing stuff with my mom and cleo... fun :P oh well. bye
Wednesday, July 23, 2003
hot dog, i love that weenie man! so, concert :) i'm only posting cuz michael wanted me to mention that a kid who was like 13 was about to hit on me... right. poor guy. he was like: so, you two are friends? (me and michael) and i said: well, he's my boy friend. and the poor kid looks at his friend and exclaims: you should have told me!!! it was funny :) ok. bye :)
Wednesday, July 23, 2003
so, concert tonight. i'm just glad today is the last day of music camp. no more subbing for mr baranay. not that i don't like the kids, but it's easier to deal with them when i'm not the teacher figure. i'm gunna miss some of them after this summer. i doubt any are coming to westmont. oh well. time for some early-morning ice cream :) bye
Sunday, July 13, 2003
ho hum. so. hi :) nothing much has happened lately that i want to share. michael, dimitri (3 year old cutie), and i had a water balloon fight today. playing base ball with them was interesting. i got a bike today, but i'm afraid to ride it... wimp :P oh well. my mom is having surgery tomorrow. i'm not worried. it'll be ok :) i get to be in charge. funfun. which means dishes and sutch :P oh well. i'm gunna go shower my stinky self. bye
Wednesday, July 2, 2003
so, i seem to be writing this song. so far, i have a title and a few verses. it'll be called 'if you flick a cricket, it'll ask for a glass of milk' and the only line i can remember is 'she hit me in the head with a loaf of bread'. that one's inspired by cleo. lovely, eh? :) bye
Saturday, June 28, 2003
so, i archived, but i don't know if it worked... if it did, the time stamp at the topof this entry is the link to my old entries. bye
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